Hello there! My name is Ladeidre, but I really prefer to be called
Dee. I will be turning 22 in a few months and I am not that excited about it. I
have been a college student at SUNY Canton for 4 years now and will be
graduating next fall. Being a student has been the biggest staple in my life
since the day I started kindergarten. Meaning, it’s the only thing I’ve ever really
had to do and I’m good at it. I am currently having a hard time adjusting
to the fact that pretty soon I will have to give this life as a student up and
actually DO SOMETHING. This is why turning 22 is not a welcoming idea. See when
I think about the age 22 I think about all the change that comes with it. Obviously
the biggest one is being a year older and being that much closer to 30. Yikes!
But on a serious note I will have to deal with being a college graduate with a Bachelor’s
degree in Finance. With that comes great responsibility and high expectations. The
biggest problem of my life will no longer be whether I have a job for the
summer break, but whether or not I can get a job worth having that I can make a
living off of. Being a student has become a way of life and somewhat of an
excuse for me for all these years, and now it is soon to expire. When you’re a
student you’re sort of at a standstill where time stops to give you a chance to
prepare for the race of life you are about to be thrown into. Am I really ready
for this?! That is the question that takes an everlasting lap around my mind.
The pressure of this approaching change has sort of brought
me to an identity crisis. I know myself as a student, meaning I know what works
for me. I know that I am a visual and hands on learner, and watching things
being done is a more effective way for me to grasp the concept of things. I
also know that I have a bad habit of procrastinating, but it’s not so bad
because my work is at its best when I am under pressure. But I don’t know me as
a college graduate that has a career. I don’t know if I will be any good at it.
It took me 17 years to fully understand myself as a student, and now that I have
finally perfected the craft it’s all over….
